Torn: Reflections Of An Unholy Affair

The only one in her dreams

Right from her teenage years

She saw him and fell in love

His laughs and his 

His protectiveness

She lived and craved for them

Only but a young girl

With a seemingly huge crush

on a man far older

She didn’t care

But she couldn’t show it

She could only follow

Like a dog on a leash

Not even fully understanding 

What her feelings truly were

True love or infatuation

Time perhaps will tell

Time perhaps will tell

Then he goes away

Without so much as a word

Gone with the wind

Left with his laughs and smiles

Left her wondering

Left her longing for what may have been

She searched all over

He was gone. Just gone

Fate plays her card as she knows best to

Reconnected by a stroke of luck

She was filled with so much joy


He is back but far away

He is back but with someone else

Cocooned in a world far away with others


Between a love that has been dormant for years and her honour

She chooses love, unholy love

Without a care

Selfishly and possessively

She wants him. All of him

He says he wants her too

That he loved her even before 

She knew what love is

She believed him. Wholeheartedly

Rejoicing in his told love for her

He is her protector

He should be her protector

The love grows, as unholy as it is

She falls completely for him

No one compares to him

Everything and everyone pales in comparison

Thoughts of him makes her insides glow

Butterflies flying, sun shining 

It is all she feels

He said he would never hurt her

Promises made, promises sworn

I’ll give you more he promised

I’ll always be there he says

Lots of promises

She believed with all her heart 

All promises that were made by him

Then long moments of silence

Calls ignored, messages unanswered

She panics, terrified

It isn’t the first time

Is he hurt?

Where is he? What is happening?

Lots of questions. All unanswered

Worried and angered

She falls sick

Disillusioned and depressed

Alarmed and worried

All in same breath

More despair and depression

Then she rants, cries and begs

Curses and then cries more

Rants and then begs

For just a word

From the love of her life

The one she has always wanted but belongs to another


Between her pride and sanity

She calls it all off

Broken, dejected and unfulfilled

With unrequited love

But he remains silent still

Not feeling her pain

Not feeling her soul

But she still hopes

For his love

She still hopes to feel his arms around her

To know what it would be like waking up with him

To feel his love flow through her

To know if the sparks will truly fly

To see if the chemistry is real

She still hopes to have him

She is torn but she still hopes

Sincere apologies KQ Tribe for the long absence. Laptop crashed in the middle of the 30 day blog challenge (now I am confused as to whether I should continue with the blog challenge or end it where it currently is and make it a 13 day blog challenge.

Laptop issues have now been sorted out and I am looking forward to getting in the grind and conversing with you all!

I thought I should do something on my Musings: Reflections category. This was written a while back and it suits the aforementioned category so I have decided to publish it and get your thoughts on it…

I hope I have been forgiven for the long absence and you all still gat my back. I am currently rebranding so great things are on the offing! Don’t touch that dial. Stay tuned.

You all know I gat nothing but love for you. Have a fabulous weekend!

Kinging Queen

Jennifer Pompaski
Jennifer Pompaski

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  2. August 9, 2018 / 8:41 am

    “Torn, but hope remains amid perpetual pain”, your comment captures the essence of this poem! Thank you for the in depth understanding!

  3. August 8, 2018 / 8:47 am

    Such a lovely composition. Its heart touching and you need great talent to pen down such feelings. Loved reading !

  4. Hilda
    August 6, 2018 / 10:25 pm

    Sweetest taboo. Addiction. Beautiful disaster. He’ll be the death of her but she cared less.

    • August 6, 2018 / 9:30 pm

      Hmmmmm. This is an in-depth albeit brief summation of what the end might be..there might be a twist in the plot though. We will see!

  5. ChiCity
    August 6, 2018 / 6:47 am

    Beautiful! The poetic lines are well composed and feelings are intelligently portrayed in a deep emotional way. Hmmm! Torn and still hoping… Keep it up dear and welcome back.

    • August 6, 2018 / 7:36 am

      Thanks City! Your comments mean a lot and thanks for being a part of KQ Tribe! Have a fabulous week!

  6. August 5, 2018 / 10:38 pm

    Very beautifully written. I can definately relate to the feelings you portray in this. Thanks for sharing this!

  7. August 5, 2018 / 5:43 pm

    Wow this was very touching…keep up the good work!

  8. August 5, 2018 / 5:21 pm

    That’s touching! Love the way the story unfolds and the beautiful selection of words.

  9. August 5, 2018 / 1:21 pm

    Such a beautiful composition. Thanks for sharing xx

  10. sammy2014us
    August 5, 2018 / 5:38 am

    Poetic side of pompaski!!! Had to read it again and will be reading same time after time. One word for you….’the Queen that delivers’!!! Keep up the great works love.

    • August 5, 2018 / 7:18 am

      Thanks! Your comments are always encouraging. Thanks for being a part of the KQ Tribe!

  11. Etedjere Stephanie
    August 4, 2018 / 3:56 pm

    So touching..More Grace

    • August 5, 2018 / 7:19 am

      Thanks darling and thank you for being a part of KQ Tribe!

  12. Tega Okanatoto
    August 4, 2018 / 12:22 pm

    Thats a very powerful and beautiful one.Keep it up and the doors are opening more wide everyday

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